I tell you all of this to offer a simple plea in these strange times: give your pastor grace.
Holding a grudge never ever results in what we think it will.
We know He gives the growth and thus gets the glory, but He does see you, and He will reward you.
It does not matter if we think we’re worth it; He thinks we are.
Pastor, this is not a competition. God loves you just as extravagantly in your failures as He does in your successes and He isn't comparing your ministry to the one across the street.
Worship should change us. If we are encountered by the same God Habakkuk speaks of, we will be transformed. We will leave different than we were when we came. If we aren’t transformed, we aren’t worshipping.